2 Samuel 7:28
"O Sovereign LORD, you are God! Your words are trustworthy, and you have promised these good things to your servant"
God doesn't want me to have a crutch. Smoking is just that. Recently I have been tested. I have been having DAILY struggles with issues that cause me stress. How did I deal with these situations in the past? Well I smoked of course. :)
God is showing me that when I am stressed, when I am having trials....these are the times I should turn my eyes to him. Not go light up.... I have found that in my quest to quit smoking, i have found God in a way I didn't have him before. I am truly relying on him. I am relying on him for strength, the courage, for the will to fight and I am also trusting him to resolve the issues that are causing me stress.
The crazy part is...when i do immediately go to Him and seek his will in the situation...I almost IMMEDIATELY feel better. It's amazing how "healthful" it feels to be in God's will....
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
reasons....
Top 10 Reasons I Quit Smoking
I will reduce my chances of having a heart attack or stroke.
I will reduce my chances of getting lung cancer, emphysema, and other lung diseases.
I will have better smelling clothes, hair, breath, home, and car.
I will climb stairs and walk without getting out of breath.
I will have fewer wrinkles.
I will be free of a nagging cough.
I will reduce the number of coughs, colds, and earaches my child will have.
I will have more energy to pursue physical activities I enjoy.
I will treat myself to new books or music with the money I save from not buying cigarettes.
I will have more control over my life.
I will reduce my chances of having a heart attack or stroke.
I will reduce my chances of getting lung cancer, emphysema, and other lung diseases.
I will have better smelling clothes, hair, breath, home, and car.
I will climb stairs and walk without getting out of breath.
I will have fewer wrinkles.
I will be free of a nagging cough.
I will reduce the number of coughs, colds, and earaches my child will have.
I will have more energy to pursue physical activities I enjoy.
I will treat myself to new books or music with the money I save from not buying cigarettes.
I will have more control over my life.
day 6
I am still absolutely shocked at how selfish I had become as a smoker. It turns out that the actual poison I was inhaling wasn't the only thing taking away my life. I have found so much joy in being with my kids, etc... It's amazing how much of my life was catering to smoking. Where I ate, who I hung out with, what I did socially, whay i spent my money on....it was all centered around my smoking....gross.
Right now, I am sitting at the park watching my kids play. We went to get ice cream today and to the library. I will stay at this park as long as they want today because I am not thinking about getting home and smoking a cigarette. I will put them first today...and every day. What I should've been doing all along.....
Tomorrow is one week! One week of seeing myself in a new light. One week of me practicing self control. One week of me being truly proud of myself, through and through. One week....so much can change in a week.
Right now, I am sitting at the park watching my kids play. We went to get ice cream today and to the library. I will stay at this park as long as they want today because I am not thinking about getting home and smoking a cigarette. I will put them first today...and every day. What I should've been doing all along.....
Tomorrow is one week! One week of seeing myself in a new light. One week of me practicing self control. One week of me being truly proud of myself, through and through. One week....so much can change in a week.
SIX DAYS
Well I had my first backyard BBQ being a non smoker. I was a little hesitant and honestly wasn't really looking forward to it all that much, but in reality, it ended up being more fun. When it started getting too cold to sit outside, we came inside....cause no need to sit outside to smoke :)
I'm am retraining my brain to enjoy things without a cigarette. That has turned out to be the hardest part....my mental addiction. The cravings have not been too bad....but the decision to keep going has been my nemisis.
Today my mom brought me Cadbury Eggs to congratulate me.....YUM! I am so excited!
Tomorrow makes a week....stay posted.
I'm am retraining my brain to enjoy things without a cigarette. That has turned out to be the hardest part....my mental addiction. The cravings have not been too bad....but the decision to keep going has been my nemisis.
Today my mom brought me Cadbury Eggs to congratulate me.....YUM! I am so excited!
Tomorrow makes a week....stay posted.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Wrapping up DAY FOUR
Wow. What a journey. I have put off quitting for so long b/c ... well b/c I didn't want to and also b/c I kept thinking about how hard it would be and how I didn't want to make a committment like that. Well It turns out that except for a few little bumps along the way, it hasn't been that hard. Sure, I have had my temptations....but I usually just try to occupy myself with something productive.
I will say this : I have maybe been the tiniest little bit snippy. I may have had a smidge of road rage. I may have wanted to sniff the guy at Starbucks that lit up as i was leaving...
BUT I have done this.
I have done this in spite of the NEVER-ENDING areas that are set aside especially for people who like to inhale dirty air into their lungs. Special areas that are like "members only" areas. I mean, try walking into the smoking area of an airport and just sitting there....you are likely gonna be thrown through the plate glass...you know...for being all high and mighty and healthy etc.
Well, I am no longer a member of the club, but.... I am a member of the "I said I was gonna do it and GOSH DARN IT, I am" club. There is nothing more gratifying that setting a goal and accomplishing it. While I know i still have a long road ahead of me, I am proud of the little path i've made in my life that is leading to a better me.
I will say this : I have maybe been the tiniest little bit snippy. I may have had a smidge of road rage. I may have wanted to sniff the guy at Starbucks that lit up as i was leaving...
BUT I have done this.
I have done this in spite of the NEVER-ENDING areas that are set aside especially for people who like to inhale dirty air into their lungs. Special areas that are like "members only" areas. I mean, try walking into the smoking area of an airport and just sitting there....you are likely gonna be thrown through the plate glass...you know...for being all high and mighty and healthy etc.
Well, I am no longer a member of the club, but.... I am a member of the "I said I was gonna do it and GOSH DARN IT, I am" club. There is nothing more gratifying that setting a goal and accomplishing it. While I know i still have a long road ahead of me, I am proud of the little path i've made in my life that is leading to a better me.
Friday, March 27, 2009
an epiphony
So as I close out day three as a nonsmoker, feeling pretty kick butt if I do say so myself, I realize something. It has hit me like a ton of bricks. It has literally ceased my breathing for a moment. And this is it....
My sweet Bella has spent the better part of her life being stuck with needles, being put under, having surgeries, having doctors poke and prod her, having to take medicine that only makes her feel different, but makes her look different too, having to eat a special diet, not getting have bday cake at some bday parties, take meds that taste yucky, pee in a tray....SHE DIDN'T CHOOSE ANY OF THIS. As sick as she's been. She didn't do anything to make her that way.
How selfish. I have spent the last 15 years being so self centered. I have been doing something that not only could make me sick or even kill me, but it could make me unable to take care of my precious baby that didn't ask for any of this.
Bella is such a trooper. Through all her trials, her smile has always been present. Her willingness to accept the situation has always been present.To watch her resist temptation when she's on a special diet, has been remarkable. But most of all, her courage walking into the fear of it all has been astounding.
This is the least I can do.
My sweet Bella has spent the better part of her life being stuck with needles, being put under, having surgeries, having doctors poke and prod her, having to take medicine that only makes her feel different, but makes her look different too, having to eat a special diet, not getting have bday cake at some bday parties, take meds that taste yucky, pee in a tray....SHE DIDN'T CHOOSE ANY OF THIS. As sick as she's been. She didn't do anything to make her that way.
How selfish. I have spent the last 15 years being so self centered. I have been doing something that not only could make me sick or even kill me, but it could make me unable to take care of my precious baby that didn't ask for any of this.
Bella is such a trooper. Through all her trials, her smile has always been present. Her willingness to accept the situation has always been present.To watch her resist temptation when she's on a special diet, has been remarkable. But most of all, her courage walking into the fear of it all has been astounding.
This is the least I can do.
DAY THREE
"My comfort in my suffering is this: Your promise preserves my life. " (Psalm 119:50)
Today I will meet my biggest temptation. I am gonna hang out with some great friends that all smoke. I fully believe I can overcome this. I am going into this with my defenses up and a strong will.
Yesterday Bella said to me... " Mom, I am glad you quit smoking. I told you it was not good for you"
Nuff Said.
Today I will meet my biggest temptation. I am gonna hang out with some great friends that all smoke. I fully believe I can overcome this. I am going into this with my defenses up and a strong will.
Yesterday Bella said to me... " Mom, I am glad you quit smoking. I told you it was not good for you"
Nuff Said.
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