I am still absolutely shocked at how selfish I had become as a smoker. It turns out that the actual poison I was inhaling wasn't the only thing taking away my life. I have found so much joy in being with my kids, etc... It's amazing how much of my life was catering to smoking. Where I ate, who I hung out with, what I did socially, whay i spent my money on....it was all centered around my smoking....gross.
Right now, I am sitting at the park watching my kids play. We went to get ice cream today and to the library. I will stay at this park as long as they want today because I am not thinking about getting home and smoking a cigarette. I will put them first today...and every day. What I should've been doing all along.....
Tomorrow is one week! One week of seeing myself in a new light. One week of me practicing self control. One week of me being truly proud of myself, through and through. One week....so much can change in a week.
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