here ya go....

Well I've been over a month as a NON SMOKER. I'm pretty proud. I've made it through girls nights, back yard BBQ's and working in the same office as a smoker.... I AM PROUD.

I will confess, I've lit a few cigs for friends...
I've even had a couple of puffs...but the good part for me is that when I did take those puffs, it wasn't b/c I was "gonna die if I didn't". I wouldn't be me if I didn't push the envelope a little. I wanted to see what I could get away with...does that even make sense to you?

Anyway, I still feel strong. I had a couple of puffs tonight for the first time and I don't want anymore. That's good right? I feel really strong...really empowered. The mind is an amazing thing... It truly has me contemplating what else I could accomplish/overcome....

Thank you Jesus for your strength.